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mom and me 8th grade

(Photo credit Chelsea Mandler)

As the dawn is growing near,

And the days begin to wane,

I saw the darkness in your eyes

Not much of you remains.

 

There is no sweet satisfaction,

To see the pain that you endure,

I wonder if you know it all,

That our life was but a blur.

 

Your strength, I did admire,

You knew how to survive,

You made it through the toughest times,

Steadfast and alive

 

But you did not fight for me,

You left in quite a haste,

I only see you walking away,

I never saw your face.

 

And the years passed by so quickly,

From being a child to where I am now,

I thought we would have a chance,

To mend our love somehow.

 

Yet, you were very nasty,

Always something mean to say,

I treated you with respect,

Because I am that way.

 

I got your Christmas card this year,

With a business card inside,

Telling me to take care of things,

When you finally died.

 

And that is when it happened,

When I could finally see,

You horrible, heartless woman,

You missed out on me.

 

And all the pills of I have swallowed,

All the drinks I drunk,

And all the drugs I have ingested throughout my life,

Was to fill the heart you sunk.

 

God graced me with some clarity,

I could see the undertaking,

In front of me, I will rebuild,

The life from me you’ve taken.

 

Therefore, the answer is simple,

I will not be your pawn,

You will have to find another soul,

To care for you after you have gone.

 

And when it is finally over,

The only pain I foresee,